ill be there wenever u need someone
ill be stealing looks at you,amidst ur time for fun
ill be gazing into ur eyes,wenever i get a chance
will wipe away all ur sorrows,just like u did once
ill hold ur hand in the rain,lest u slip and fall
ill be there to clean ur bruises,b4 even u give out a call
ill be there to put ur blanket on u,when u feel cold
ill be there to carry all ur burden,when there is none else to hold
ill be there when u close ur eyes,and ur feeling blue
ill do everything that it takes to change d colour of ur hue
ill wake u up everyday for class,lest u sleep it over
ill be there to find u ur perfect gurl,just as u like it,all so sober
ill be there to give u a massage,when ur legs ache
ill be there to remind u of taking ur meds,lest u forget
ill be there to draw the curtains for u,when ur tired
ill be there to control ur ac temperature,to make sur ur well catered
ill be there as d shadow,when its too sunny
ill be there to light ur zippo,whcih u got fr 100 bucks of money
ill be there to make u study for ur supplies
il try my best to calm u down and to keep u at ease
ill be there to make ur bed for u
ill be there to take care of bonnie and clyde too
ill be there to protect wth wadever i have
ill be there to remind u not to fag
ill be there to see movies wth u
ill be there to listen to u
ill be there to watch u
ill be there to embrace u
ill be there to hug u
ill be there to kiss u
ill be there,only for u...

im still standing at that zippo counter,seeing u smile,im still at kfc,listening to u,and seeing u smile again,im still there at the tyre shop,seeing u get all sweaty,im still walking wth u,and wishing i cud help,im still going around wth u,searching for colleges,im still at ur place,watching u come out all wet after a shower,i cn still smell u,i cn still taste u,im still opening ur shirt,im still trying to play fifa,im still watching u play pop,im still talking to u in ur balcony,im still getting scared wen u talk to ur mom..im still back home listening to u cry over d fone,im still online,waiting desperately for ur msgs,im still writing my diary,and saying i love u 1000 times,im still smsing u,im still reading all ur msgs,im still typing in this at fb,im still acting stupid,im still acting immature..

life.i suppose.

far far away
i see d sun sparkle
creeping up the window so grey
it reaches me n wants my say
on wad shud b his next step
from the world so long that he has kept
his secrets,his desires.his wishes
n all his altered cliches
he wants me to hold his hand
n pull him out of ds drowning sand
afraid is he of his competitors
n more of dose covered cheaters
who cum in a whoosh
and take away all his glory
n leave him cornered ,all so sorry
not fr others,but fer himself
n close him upon his own shelf
he reaches his hand out
for me to hold
but i stay so stout
i don look atr him
thinking my own made problems
are always at brim
becum so self centred has ds world
dat apart from scribbles,nothing else is heard
confined in our own conceptual prison
v seldom look out
out fer wad others need
out fer givin others heed
v stay in our own sweet cyst
n take life as a mist
don have time fer ne1 else
n go just lookin forward,hence
in one straight motive
in one straight desire
to b d 1st,to be always in fire
wen do v look at the other?
to us,wen duz it ever bother?

*period*

this is why i dont complain
evn if no ones dere wen im in pain
i gv dem a sweet smile
n cover their insides so vile
take my sorrows to my own grave
n within me,do i save
all my distresses
all my pain
n let out by d simple rain
fer no body s dere fer me
even though i try hard not to see
i close my eyes lose my own self
n be sumwere in d land of d elf
i fly off within to some dream land
were dere is you ,to hold my hand
i dream,i crawl,i swim,i fly
"up above this world so high
like the daimonds in the sky"

but soon do i realise
that ur moving away
n in ds case i hv no say
i realise u hv ur own miseries
n u cant find d keys
of d door u locked upon urself
but ur ego duznt allow u to cry fer help
not just d case wt u,
but everyone else too
ds is wad life has done
ds is wad cums bak to the story of d sun
all of us r caught up in d same maze
n all v cn see is just haze
not ur fault,not mine,not his
its just the world dats becum a bizz
has it becum self-cntred
has it becum one-motived
has it becum so arrogant
has it becum so captived?

on ds note i end
leavin perceptions in ur mind to blend
n becum summin new
fer ds world to see
n fer something to be..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=di_UbxpCprk

lycans fascinate me! totally.

Lycans are creatures simialr to werebeasts, with one expection..they have only 2 forms and
neither of them are human. Lycans appear to be normal everyday run of the mill animals
(including common house pets), but when they are angered they shape change into rather large
and very dangerous beasts forms of their normal selves. Lycans are fairly intelligent, less
than a human but damn smart for an animal. They can quickly learn to understand a language,
as well as communicate their wants and needs to someone they have been around long, and who's
intelligent enough to pick it up. Lycans are mostly harmless, atleast they look that way, in
their natural form and even behave exactly their other normal counterparts; but it's when
they are pissed off that their true nature is revealed that opinions of the animal will
rapidlly change. Lycans are still so similar to their normal kin that they become attached
and loyal to many people, if those people take care of and feed it and show it proper
affection, like a normal pet. Of course, once a Lycan's true nature is discovered...it will
no longer be a normal pet, instead it will be one helluva pet.
The histroy of the Lycan isn't really known, but certain very high level magic-users that can
create life have been known to more than one of these creatures around their dwelling,
guarding it most likely.
There are 2 common types of Lycans; dogs and cats (domestic/house). Although there are other
types of Lycans, they are far far less common than the simple dog and cat variety, some of
these other Lycans include monkeys, lizards, birds, 'toy dragons', and rarest of the
rare...the BIG cats. There is also a super rare sub-type of Lycans, commonly called the
Battlycans. The Battlycans get their from the fact that they are perfect riding mounts, and
don't seem to mind it, though some are non-mountable. Of all the types, only large toy
dragons, large lizards, large dogs, large monkeys, and the big cats can ever be Battlycans.
Some Lycans ARE feral, and such do roam in wild packs. If there is a Battlycan in the group,
it will be the Alphalycan (if it's an adult). Wolf Lycan packs are known to be in the
Americas (plus monkeys and cats in south america).
Breeding: If 2 lycans breed, the litter will be all lycan. If a Battlycan breeds with
another, each baby has a 10% chance of being a Battlycan, but they will all be Lycans. If a
Lycan breeds with a normal animal (of it's same species) each baby has a 50% chance of being
a Lycan, if one is Lycan it has a 1% chance of being a Battlycan. If a Battlycan breeds with
a normal animal, each baby has a 75% chance of being a Lycan, and each Lycan baby has a 5%
chance of being a Battlycan.

the break-up

dead,crying,insane by thoughts
there was he
lying on a street corner.
blind by the heart
deaf by the touch
there,was a complete loner

catastrophic wass he
scribbles was all he could see
caught in this undefined maze of life
black mornings,orange nights
yellow riverswas all that formed his sight

the nervous lines around
whipped him,slapped him
and salughtered him

his grave was dug,and flowers laid
but from thid bleak world
no atttention was paid

bidding goodbye
there was he
liein quietly in his grave
when sumthin reachd his lips
and left a moist touch
and ds gave him the power to say
"yaas! this is me"

the scribbles around seemed to disappear
white light touched him
as his sight started to re-appear
the nervous contours became sharper

the world looked brighter
i could smell the flowers
i could see the rainbow
i could feel the schism
from my head to toe

my toungue ran wild
on bright azure sands
my thoughts ran deep
on moist hands

the voice inside roared
and leaped a lion too
the angel behind ds transition
i knew it was YOU

you gave me life
you gave me freedom
you made me explore
the hidden beauty
a lil bit more

i tasted love
i tasted oneness
i cried in joy
for being out of my clumsiness

but now i am going back
for my sweet sleep
for u ran away
cuttin me deep

within me i do sigh
that you never came
and that i was never out of my shame..

and now its just time to say goodbye.

the beauty

struggling wt the blanket we share
n seeing ur eeky nostrils flare
i wake up to the mystifying dawn
n head to walk on d ever-green mossy lawn
dat lay in front of us
covered wth sparkling dew-drops
mesmarised by d beauty of the lush
i realise,in my eyes there r sobs
not of despair,not of fear
but of thots dat mk me cheer
thots of d recent hours v shared
n d way i got lured
d way he held me,the way he carassed me
d way he made every momnt beautiful,i could just see
a life-pact was prolly wad i'd signed
the night b4,just after v had dined
i donno wad it was fer him
but within me,i was on the brim
fer,to him i had signed my life
n had made an unsaid bribe
den the thots go blue
there are so many,that i cant find my hue
i lay in a world so unkown
full of fantasies i had yet not been shown
midst the red n white
summin held me tight
but i din wanna let go
n my pain,i din wanna show
pain of losing him,fear rather
i didnot want my dreams to shatter
wen i was almost gone
he pulled me bak
n moisture touched my flowery lips
n all fear drained away,like lose sand frm a sack
i tried fighting with all i had
but hadda gv up to this lad
he had me upright
n didnot let me fight
but soon i realised i was losing sight
everything turned black
everything turned to a lullaby
i remember being in his arms
secured fer life wth his sublte charms....

shrugging all last night thots
i try getting out of all knots
i try taking a step forward
wen from behind he comes
and holds me hard
in a clasp i couldnot break
in an excitemnt i couldnot shake
he sniffs below my ear
n wipes away that lil tear
he tells me he loves me
n distress in me,is wad he cannot see
i close my eyes n leave myself to him
i fall in his arms n let myself fly
like d world had nothing to do wimme
i was in a weird high
he turns me around
n glory touches me again
n in this kindom,i let him solely reign
as i give away myself
to this angelic elf.....

well.i donot really know why i started this.i am not a blog person.but yet,i think sometimes you do things in life which donot probably have a meaning for u,which donot probably have a feeling for you.but yeah,u still end up doing it.well,another thing i think holds significance in my life is NID.i mean,i wrote my first poem after coming here,9 months back.and then,after gettin applauses on reading it out,i basically started writing.and look at this! after 9 months i start my own blog! whoa! i am someone who gets into these "writing" moods.but very rarely.generally i am doodling in my sketchbook or talking.to myself.randomly.i really need to be told to write something.seriously.like majority of my poems are course reflections.when everyone else submitted write ups on mere literal descriptions,i wrote a poem.majorly what i think got me started.but anyway..lets hope for the best!