the break-up

dead,crying,insane by thoughts
there was he
lying on a street corner.
blind by the heart
deaf by the touch
there,was a complete loner

catastrophic wass he
scribbles was all he could see
caught in this undefined maze of life
black mornings,orange nights
yellow riverswas all that formed his sight

the nervous lines around
whipped him,slapped him
and salughtered him

his grave was dug,and flowers laid
but from thid bleak world
no atttention was paid

bidding goodbye
there was he
liein quietly in his grave
when sumthin reachd his lips
and left a moist touch
and ds gave him the power to say
"yaas! this is me"

the scribbles around seemed to disappear
white light touched him
as his sight started to re-appear
the nervous contours became sharper

the world looked brighter
i could smell the flowers
i could see the rainbow
i could feel the schism
from my head to toe

my toungue ran wild
on bright azure sands
my thoughts ran deep
on moist hands

the voice inside roared
and leaped a lion too
the angel behind ds transition
i knew it was YOU

you gave me life
you gave me freedom
you made me explore
the hidden beauty
a lil bit more

i tasted love
i tasted oneness
i cried in joy
for being out of my clumsiness

but now i am going back
for my sweet sleep
for u ran away
cuttin me deep

within me i do sigh
that you never came
and that i was never out of my shame..

and now its just time to say goodbye.

the beauty

struggling wt the blanket we share
n seeing ur eeky nostrils flare
i wake up to the mystifying dawn
n head to walk on d ever-green mossy lawn
dat lay in front of us
covered wth sparkling dew-drops
mesmarised by d beauty of the lush
i realise,in my eyes there r sobs
not of despair,not of fear
but of thots dat mk me cheer
thots of d recent hours v shared
n d way i got lured
d way he held me,the way he carassed me
d way he made every momnt beautiful,i could just see
a life-pact was prolly wad i'd signed
the night b4,just after v had dined
i donno wad it was fer him
but within me,i was on the brim
fer,to him i had signed my life
n had made an unsaid bribe
den the thots go blue
there are so many,that i cant find my hue
i lay in a world so unkown
full of fantasies i had yet not been shown
midst the red n white
summin held me tight
but i din wanna let go
n my pain,i din wanna show
pain of losing him,fear rather
i didnot want my dreams to shatter
wen i was almost gone
he pulled me bak
n moisture touched my flowery lips
n all fear drained away,like lose sand frm a sack
i tried fighting with all i had
but hadda gv up to this lad
he had me upright
n didnot let me fight
but soon i realised i was losing sight
everything turned black
everything turned to a lullaby
i remember being in his arms
secured fer life wth his sublte charms....

shrugging all last night thots
i try getting out of all knots
i try taking a step forward
wen from behind he comes
and holds me hard
in a clasp i couldnot break
in an excitemnt i couldnot shake
he sniffs below my ear
n wipes away that lil tear
he tells me he loves me
n distress in me,is wad he cannot see
i close my eyes n leave myself to him
i fall in his arms n let myself fly
like d world had nothing to do wimme
i was in a weird high
he turns me around
n glory touches me again
n in this kindom,i let him solely reign
as i give away myself
to this angelic elf.....

well.i donot really know why i started this.i am not a blog person.but yet,i think sometimes you do things in life which donot probably have a meaning for u,which donot probably have a feeling for you.but yeah,u still end up doing it.well,another thing i think holds significance in my life is NID.i mean,i wrote my first poem after coming here,9 months back.and then,after gettin applauses on reading it out,i basically started writing.and look at this! after 9 months i start my own blog! whoa! i am someone who gets into these "writing" moods.but very rarely.generally i am doodling in my sketchbook or talking.to myself.randomly.i really need to be told to write something.seriously.like majority of my poems are course reflections.when everyone else submitted write ups on mere literal descriptions,i wrote a poem.majorly what i think got me started.but anyway..lets hope for the best!